You can't rationalize something like PTSD or survivor's guilt, which Barbara has in spades. Of course it's not a healthy approach on her part, but that's kind of the point. Even 'miracles' come with a price.
I don't call Barbara walking again a miracle. She just went to a doctor who had the skills to perform the feats necessary to correct a condition she was in. The only way it could be called a miracle is if she woke up one morning and found out she could walk again. THAT is a miracle.
Geez, why isn't she feeling guilty every time she goes for a checkup? Not everyone can go see a doctor so what makes her so special? That should come as a heavy burden.
Again, you and I don't, but Barbara seems to see the very fact of her cure - by a doctor, in a clinic she herself visited - as a 'miracle'. It's not a rational approach to things, sure, but the book isn't claiming Barbara is being particularly rational, either. Any attempt to rationalize, as you seem to be doing here, seems rather futile to me.
I may be trying to rationalize things, but I am by no means rational. This story is telling me to feel a certain way about Barbara when I don't really care. I don't feel sorry for her being able to walk again when other people can't. It's life. Same can go people who cannot be a super hero. Or for those who don't have friends or family. It's a sad part of life, but it's not something that should be on your mind like this. Geez, if she cares that much about folks who are paralyzed, why doesn't she become a doctor and help them to walk again? It's about as believable as going from a street fighting super hero to a pro-computer hacker.
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Geez, why isn't she feeling guilty every time she goes for a checkup? Not everyone can go see a doctor so what makes her so special? That should come as a heavy burden.
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